here are some formspring answers for you
and then I am going to read some and go to sleep:)
If you could be a city, what city would you be and why?
Mm. I think either Chicago or San Francisco. I hyave no clue. I have always just felt really connected to those places. And I feel like if I ever lived in either place, I would love it.
If you could be a color, what color would you be and why?
Honestly, probably something like burgundy. It is deep, and sad, but also beautiful and quiet and honest. I guess, I dunno. Colors are so open when it comes to description if that makes sense. Like I say burgundy right now, but depending on the day, I might be violet or yellow.
If you could go to a world from a book, what world would you choose and why?
Either the place in Inkheart or Harry Potter’s Wizarding World. OR Narnia! I don’t know, that’s a hard one:) I would love to be in all of the places I have read about.
is it hard for you to be a christian? do you regularly attend a church? I used to be really into church, but after a really bad situation at my church I have lost all respect for my preacher and find little joy in attending. I only go for some of the amazing families that attend who I could never go without seeing. When I was in youth group it was easier to be a Christian, because I was surrounded by fun people who believed in God. Now I’m surrounded by fun people who don’t believe in God. It’s not exactly bad, because we don’t drink or do drugs, but its just different. I’m sorry I ranted a bunch here. I just feel like I can relate to you.
No need to apologize:) it’s cool that you came to me. the advice I am going to give is this: don’t let anybody, pastor, friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, etc. represent God for you. people are always going to let you down, that’s something God will never do. I think a lot of the time, we get upset with churches or something because of people, and that’s an issue of forgiveness, but forgiving the person that hurt you or caused you to think differently about the church doesn’t mean you have to be buddies with them. I suggest that you try another church, because it is important to have fellowship with other believers. I honestly have no idea where I would be without my friends from church. It’s not really hard for me because I enjoy the difficulties God sends my way. He is much better at controlling my life than I am, and even though learning to trust Him has been very difficult, it has also been worth it. I do attend church regularly. But it took me a while to find myself at the church I am at, and the one I attended before was starting to get to me and make me view God differently. Now I have an amazing pastor and wonderful friends. We are really close and like a family there. I will be praying for you. In the mean time, try and find some ways to connect with God in your personal life, building a one on one relationship with Him, so when you do find a church you love, the experience will be even more rewarding.
